Support MDRTB Patients Completely

The experience we had been through with MDRTB has thought us a lot of lesson. The patience, family bonding and support and disseminating guides and information to others who are aware of the disease but are not conscious about it. Those lesson have not only helped us but the community also around us.

When you have the disease, it is reported to your nearest health center, recorded also in the city health for follow-up matters and identification for each patient.

The entire medication program in the San Lazaro Hospital is entirely free. I remember, one of the nurses said that the budget for a single medication can cost about P1,000 a day per patient. And the entire medication plus the laboratory fees, can cost up to P3 million pesos per patient. The only reminder they insisted to us is to never missed a day of taking those meds because it means that the patient is taking for granted the budget that is allotted to him/her.

MDRTB: Part II

Previously, I had written a post about MDRTB. It is one of the serious diseases in the country that are taken for granted by normal people. Taken for granted because they are not aware of how it spreads and that they don't bother caring on how to prevent it.

The purpose of this post is to spread a kind of experience we had and aware them that this is not just a matter of article-related topic but a true experience we had for the past years.

Let us not be ignorant or blinded by the things that is happening around our society. Instead, let us be defensive together with our love ones by informing them with these reality in our life today.

MDRTB: A Resisting Virus to Fight

Have you heard about MDRTB? I know for sure most of you are not really familiar about it like me when we first heard about it. It was really unrecognizable term for us. I even ask myself twice if I heard it right.

Yes, I did. MDRTB stands for Multi-drug Resistant TB. It means that anyone who is diagnosed with it, the virus has evolved and has started to resist Rifampicin and other basic drugs for the disease. It diagnosed when TB has relapse, done with other test like sputum culture and x-ray.

Here in the Philippines, it is very common but is not understood by the community itself. Most people refuse to understand these situation rather they think of it as a scourge or epidemic without even doing some prevention. Why did I say these? Observe some people who coughs roughly without even covering their mouths? Others have even don't bother at all. See?

Beware and Be Aware: Primary Complex Are Everywhere

Strolling around somewhere were fun is satisfied, that’s where most people go. Without being aware of the chances of getting virus around in which our naked eyes cannot see. We bring our children to places where others are also enjoying the same thing we wanted ourselves to relish at the same time. Virus that cause primary complex to our children are everywhere.

Malls, markets and groceries, churches and other places where most people go are much exposed to exchange bacteria and viruses from one person to another without giving them any harm at all.

We are aware of that but most don’t beware themselves with it. They might take it for granted for the reason of paranoia. But when viruses and other bacteria had gotten their bodies, that’s when they are conscious with the situation.

This year, my youngest daughter, 1 and a half year-old, had been attacked by the virus since March. For the previous year, she had cough and runny nose almost every month. The doctor had suspected a primary complex for the reason that she had an exposure with her father. The test is given: PPD and x-ray. Everything turned into positive.

Primary Complex: Last Day of Struggled Medication

Today is my daughter’s last day of struggling to take her meds every day. She was diagnosed having primary complex last March 2016. She had suffered cough and colds constantly every month and that is why the doctor had suggested to take her the test for Primary Complex.

After several days of taking the three meds and down into two for the continuing phase. The 168 days, total number of days for the medication she should accomplished without missing a single day.

Now that she has finished the race, I’m not going to be worried every morning when I wake up on how to do the magic just to help her take those meds. It was really a struggle especially on the first month. My daughter is one of those children that are really afraid to take meds. I have tried a lot of acts just to help her ease with the burden. Yes, at her age, she knows that those meds are not so tasty to take.

I'm back

Yes, I'm back and I would like to apologize for the long absence I made. I took a serious vacation from writing this blog and concentrate on my family whom I personally took good care for a serious illness.

Now, let's get into business again. I would like to share some issues focusing on health as my members of the family got into serious illness they have suffer. I, together with my family, would like to share information and our personal experience while we were through this struggle of our life.

On my next post, I'll explain and expand the illness we were fighting for two years and two months and the aftereffects of the medicines taken for years.

See you.

Have you heard about Pap Smear?

I heard about it but never see Pap Smear as a very serious & necessary routine for any mom & woman today. I just thought it was just part of a campaign made by health workers but never see its significance at all. 

Last August 16, my college friends and I had a reunion after such 8 years of not seeing each other although we usually talk on social networking sites. The usual laughter and teasing which are our bonding activities during the old day plus the 'karaoke' add on had complete our routine of enjoyment. But as we go along our relish, a topic was opened by Vanessa Griño whom is a medical representative; 'Have you had a pap smear ever?' Ooopps... I hadn't had one but although I heard about it.

Among the seven girls and a guy in the group, three of us are moms already and none of us had any Pap Smear since, of course aside from Vanessa. The thought of getting a pap smear or a pap test sank into e as days go on.  So one day, I pushed myself to get a researched done about the interest and value of it. I went to the city library of Davao located at the 3rd floor of the Sangguniang Panglungsod or the City Hall. 

I started to look and found out the best book talking about the Pap Smear or the Pap Test. And luckily, I could share it here without concerning of  practicing plagiarism. Hope these would also help other moms and woman out there to have a good comprehension about Pap Smear. 

What is a Pap Test?

 A pap test is the removal and microscopic examination of the outer layer of cells lining the cervic. Named after its inventor, Dr. George Papanicolaou, it is based on the principle that if the cells are normal, the result is negative. if abnormal cells are found, the the result is positive and the woman is asked to a repeat test to confirm findings. These cells are shed continuously and are contained in vaginal secretions. Samples are taken from the cervical canal during internal examination and sent to the laboratory for analysis with a microscope. 

-Surgery on File, Obstetrics and Gynecology by The Diagram Group
Paulette Pratt and Ellen Sarewits
Facts on File Publications
July 1, 1988


To be Continue.

VALUES EDUCATION:How to change your negative responses?

Have you ever had negative responses to your children at some time of you being a mom or a woman? 

When at times of difficultness like being stressed, getting into a hard situation, or suffering from a really deep pain and yet you still did negative responses to your children and suddenly you realize that you did was wrong? And you can't even hold it back the way you wanted and the way it should be retorted. That makes you upset, right?

I would like to share tips from the book '365 Ways to Help Your Children Grow' by Shella Ellison and Barbara Ann Barnett, Ph.D on what to do when you aren't happy on the way you reacted under a sudden unexpected situation.

1. Close your eyes and review the situation in your head, trying to see all the little details, onceyou have it clearly in your head, run the scene again, except this time change the way you act. Even though it is in your mine, it is a step toward being able to respond differently next time.

2. It is never too late to say you're sorry. A child will learn very much from this kind of modeling. You might say, " I had a very, hard day today and I am so sorry that I yelled the way I did, it had nothing to do with how you were acting. Do you forgive me?"

I hope these guides on 'how to change your negative responses would definitely helped us parents, moms, woman, and anyone on our daily lives to achieve a better and happier family we are building, foq a happy family would produce into a better individuals being responsible as each member grows in a society and become a good example for each one of us.

So, share us how did you had negative responses and how you had handled it on a well-behaved situation where you felt fine and satisfied? Feel free to share us your thoughts.

How to help your child grow healthier after Primary Koch’s?

Last March 2011, my younger son was hit by Primary Koch's and now after a more that a year he is better now and I would like to share on how to help your child grow healthier after Primary Koch’s?

As I reveal the story behind my son’s situation, being about 2 years old then and now going four by next month, I see the difference between then and now.

First Name Errors: A Serious Matter

Twenty-eight years of my life and of my existence and still my life hasn't move on into the life I was always dreaming of. Why? Because from the start of it, I wasn't even settled into the right way. Funny and dramatic but it's the reality. Yes, for some 'first name errors', on a serious matter, I still can't move on.

The Birth

I was born on February 21, 1984 with my parents' happiness  as my mom gave birth to a cute baby girl(love your own :)). With the excitement they had, together with the elders whom had they took advice on how to take good care of a child, they named me after my father's first name, Dionessa. Please don't gave any comment about it, I wasn't even giving any. :) I was left at the hospital for I had to be confined for the reason that I ate some of the wastes on my mother's womb. After a month, it was then I finally got home. But for the first three months, I wasn't enjoying my baby life for I was always getting sick.

The Life-changing Decision

Filipinos respect their elders and every opinion they gave really affects each family they get involved. So as one of the elders gave an advice to my parents whom are very young at their age at that moment, that the reason behind my sickness was I myself doesn't like the name they had gave me. Yes, I wasn't liking my name, as the elders said. How'd they know? We'll, maybe I wasn't really liking my name at all. Don't even mention it to my father. Anyways, I was baptized in the name of Mary Charmaine Ness Nioda and eventually after the 'baptism',  the sickness I was suffering faded away.

The' School' Stage

I wonder how I went to school with the conflict I had in my birth certificate. I haven't even realize how hard it is when the legal papers matter. Guess what? As of now, I am using Ma. Charmaine Ness Nioda, as you can see on myprofile here. I know, you feel like I'm riding on a roller coaster with different angles and heights. Wish you weren't like me.

Anyways, I did notice that I had a 'forge' birth certificate when I went to college and settle my own requirements by myself,  although, in my entire life I did know all about my name. But the university I attended to, haven't even questioned the certification I submitted to them. So I was thinking it was ok then.

The Realization

Along the college days, my friends and I decided for us to get a job at the same time. So, we look for jobs during the day for we  attended school during late times at the day, an evening students. So we went looking on fast food chains and given the requirements, I was stunned! One of the requirements should be NSO(National Statistics Office) authenticated birth certificate. Whew!!! That was it. I, having different names, wasn't getting the job I was looking for, mainly with the reason of conflict legal birth certificate.

That was one of the discouragement I had until some things did change my life. Have you had the feeling of not getting into somewhere you were dreaming of? That was what I feel until now.

I did look for jobs but jobs whom doesn't require any legal papers at all. What was the reciprocity? No benefits at all; Phil health, SSS, Pag-ibig etc. only with a much lesser salary that the law requires to. The worst was, I cannot even work abroad for we all know that there is much chance of a lightier life when you work abroad. A chance for you to get your dreams much closer than working here in the Philippines, as we all know, economy reality, but not degrading the government at all.

Lessons in Life

I'm not even blaming my parents for I understand that what they did was for my own sake but risking in reality. But how I really wish they haven't done this at all. Now, being a mom and a woman, I see to it that I am using the right thing to my children when in terms of their names. I rest assured that what's registered on the Civil Registry, the baptismal and the name they are using is not conflicting with each other. I am into this trouble, so I won't even wanted my children  or anyone get into this. I just hope the parents would really see to it and assured themselves the security to their children because my whole life change at all the moment my parents change my name.

The Solution

But it's not at all too late. :) I did research on the internet and do some work on going to the Civil Registry Office to do the homework. What I found out that it was really not too late for me to fix this trouble at all. What just made me discourage was the amount I should spend on to fix this. I heard that the processing fee is three thousand pesos plus the other requirements plus the two weeks publishing and the four to six months processing. See, it's even harder but at least there is this chance.

The Requirements

I went to the Civil Registry office one day to ask for the requirements for me to get fix my first name error. But the officer in-charge told me to present first my Certification of Live Birth. So what I did was I look for other sources and finally found out the requirements I should submit in terms of fixing my first name errors. What I found was:

RA 9048 (known as) correction of clerical error birth, marriage & death (CCE) and change of first name (CFN)

Requirements:

·         Certificate of Live Birth, Marriage & Death

·         Baptismal Certificate

·         Secondary & College Transcript of Records

·         Valid Identification Card

·         Police Clearance

·         NBI Clearance

·         Affidavit of Two Disinterested Person

That's it but here's the steps to be followed (the hard-long steps):

❶Receiving/Review of Petition

❷Payment of Fees(Treasury Office) -which I heard was P3,000

❸Preparation & Posting (10 days)

❹Publication of Petition ( 2 weeks)

❺Decision of CFN

❻Submission of Petition (NSO Manila)

❼Affirmation of Decision

❽Issuance of Finality

See? Reading these would let you imagine the money you should spend, the time you should spare, and the patience you should hold. So you realize the simplier way to fix your mind on your children's first name.

I should Do

My mother, whom I told the processes I should go, told me to get an advice from legal office on changing my first name error. She said that if following my live birth certificate name would spend a much lesser time, effort and money, then I should do follow it rather than changing it at all. I answered her, I would've get sick again. :) I just really love my name today.

Although, in reality, I just really don't know where to get the financial support for me  to fix things up, but I know at least I had the chance. I had started to gather the requirements I needed and all I hope was for me to fix my first name error for the better future ahead of me being a mom and a woman of today.

I am hoping to hear from you guys about how you had in a way involve for fixing first name errors and share it with us. :)

Mom's Birthday Today

Happy Birthday Mama!

Mama & Papa

Today's my mom's 52nd  birthday. We had started the day with a 'mananita' activity. In short, with a prayer lead by the four of the greatest and oldest leaders in our little community in church.

We were really happy about it. Everybody wish my mom to be happy. Yes. happy! Recently, a really hard trial had been through with us. Although we still working on it as a family. The family as of today is not really in a good situation but I know each one of us still continue to fight.

I'm just glad that my mom chooses us to be complete rather than choosing to fight with the battle alone. As they always say:

The family that prays together, stays together.

Happy birthday Mama. Thank you for almost 30 years of taking good care of us. Thank you for the unconditional love, and sorry for the misunderstandings we had. I know in that we continue to understand each other. I became a mom and that I owe to you. What I learned today, was for what you had thought us.Thank You and we love you so much.

Monster Questions...

Have you ever experienced being asked by your children with 'monster questions'? Yes, I called them as monster questions because just really don't know where I could find the answers or even deliver an answer on a way they would understand.

One day, I was working on my blog when my eldest son, Ares, asked me a question: ' Why does I don't have an H. in my name?' I figured out what is he talking about. And I understood that it was all about his middle name. Yes, he has no middle name and he carries my surname for the reason that he's father was not there to acknowledge his surname being carried by our son, in short an illegitimate child but not unwanted.

So, again I understood that I was asked again a 'monster question'. So, I hurriedly looked for a better, easy-to-understand answer. I told him that his father was not there physically to recognized him on his birth certificate and explaining it in a much broad and easy way. As I was looking at him, I saw a still unacceptable confused mind. I wonder if he really got my explanation, but he did stop asking again.

Whew! What a day! I wish those monster questions would never come again, but I know it wouldn't . For all we know that children as of today are really smarter and confused than we thought.

Have you ever asked monster questions by your kids?How did you deal with it. I would really appreciate to get a response from you guys being a mom and a woman.

How to Learn Biking After 28 years!

Biking is fun!

The history...

                I’ve been wanting to learn biking since I was a kid. But fears came first. I was really afraid of getting down and getting wounds as a bonus from the experience of the enjoyment of biking. Now, being a woman and a mom, riding a bike is really fun after 28 years.

                Now, I have the courage, the searched braveness that I was looking for back then. Why not face my fears now? Although, I was being depressed for some reason, I tried converting it into a positive way. And that’s biking.

               I was really envy when I saw people who knows how to ride a bike especially girls. Just one day, my youngest sister, Jelly, 7, rush through me just being proud that at last she learned riding a bike. So I and my other sister Charizza, 18, not to mention that she already enjoyed riding a bike also, went outside to see ourselves the truth. And then, we started to widen our smiles as we see Jelly really knows how to do it. Wow! Then I thought: what about me? I was the only sibling who doesn’t know it as of now. So, an idea came into me. Why not tried it? Why not instead of just letting myself lie on the corner my bed still thinking of the why and how things, why not make myself busy trying to put things in a positive way?

Started the first step...and being discouraged

                The next day, about 2:30pm,  I pulled myself and Charizza carrying the small bike into the road, for confidence security. I tried sitting myself on the little triangle chair in the middle and started to pedalled, but I failed. I couldn’t continue the pace. I was also conscious that the neighbours are yelling at me like they’ve never see any 28 year-old, chubby woman tries to learn riding a bike, in their whole life. So, I got shy. I decided to go back in the house and hide myself. The awkwardness, the hesitant, and the self-pity came into me. Why does I really never had the courage to face this when I was a kid. Back then, I would never felt this kind of emotions.

And so pushing through...

                Days passed and the courage was just racing up and down. I tried learning it inside our house which the space couldn’t even reach more than five meters. I hide myself. Then one night, I dreamt of seeing myself riding a bike. So the next morning, I suggested to Charizza to go with me at Mount Carmel, where an elevated, silent road is waiting for me. There, I started again to pedal, pushing my feet to continue pedalling. But failure kept on winning over me again and again. Then Charizza suggested that I should go on the higher part of the road, riding the bike heading downwards where less effort is needed. All I should do is balancing. And I tried, and to my shock, I did it although holding tight the brakes. And I started heading upwards, and the failure comes again. I’ve done it, why not now? So, instead of bothering myself the answers, I just kept on trying the easier way, heading downwards. After some couple of riding downwards, I , again tried the harder way, heading upwards for I know that it is the key on being successful on this mission. Rushing and hurrying, I pedalled. And tralahhh! I did it! The only secret is that I should pedal the bike on a rush so that I could get the balance and the continuous of pushing it. I just did it. I was so proud of myself and so my siblings are. They kept on cheering me up and that really keeps me going. Thanks to them.

Lesson I learned...

                No matter how old, no matter how heavy, no matter of the hindrances I’ve got, still did it. I really didn’t imagine myself that I would get this achievement at this pace of my life. But seriously, what really sinks into me is that never doubt on yourself , never say never, never say you can’t do it without even trying doing it. When no matter how big the hindrances are, how heavy the problem is, if you just see looking for the answers, then you’re closer to your goals. Just face the reality and go through the hindrances, you’ll be shock in the end that you have done it. Just be positive and make yourself proud. And to face fears, start making a pace through it!

                Now, I’m on my second day enjoying the ride. I even widen my quest to farther places and rough roads although still suffering body pains and violet-blue-green portions of my legs being snapped as a bonus. How about you guys? When did you start learning to ride a bike, ride a motorbike or a car? Is the satisfaction the same?

                

K to 12: Enhanced Basic Education Program: Are we ready for that?

Improving oneself is improving one nation.

K to 12

           

                   For some two years ago, an upgrade for the better improvement on the quality education in the Philippines is set. Now, the Department of Education is starting to implement the K to12 Enhanced Basic Education Program. This program covers from kindergarten to 12 years of basic education subdivided into 6 years primary education, 4 years junior high school and 2 years senior high school. 


                   With some reasons, not all woman, parents and moms agreed on these additional years for they see this as additional expenses, effort and time. But lets see on what really is the purpose for having a better quality education: the competitiveness and meeting the international quality education standards. These will improve rankings of our nation as in terms of quality education. The fact is we are the only in Asia still having a ten-year basic education.

                   Now, it's really the time that we improve and be competitive as in terms of our education for the better future of our nation. As they say, we have to face the consequences and problems we meet in order to achieve our goals as to be one of the countries having a quality education. To see a more detailed explanation on K to 12 Program, just click here.

                  As a woman, parents and moms, would you agree on this K to 12 basic education program?

Guilty beyond reasonable doubt.

On the 30th day of May 2012, a history has been made. A chance of proving a nation’s integrity in terms of judgement by the means of implementing a strong constitution and governing by law. And as a mom, I also concluded him guilty beyond reasonable doubt.

20 against 3. That’s the score.  Guilty beyond reasonable doubt.

Conviction	Aquital	Abstain
Sen. Ed Angara Sen. Peter Cayetano Sen. Pia Cayetano Sen. Franklin Drilon Sen. Chiz Escudero Sen. Jinggoy Estrada Sen. Teofisto Guingona Sen. Gregorio Honasan Sen. Panfilo Lacson Sen. Manuel Lapid Sen. Sergio Osmena SEn. Francis Pangilinan Sen. Aquilino Pimentel III Sen. Ralph Recto Sen. Ramon Revilla Jr. Sen. Tito Sotto Sen. Trillanes Sen. Manny Villar Senate Pres. Juan Ponce Enrile	Sen. Joker arroyo Sen. Miriam Santiago Sen. Ferdinand Marcos Jr.	-none-

                 These senatorial judges given the chance to explain further their votes. Most of the gentleman and ladies in the side of conviction concluded that the respondent and defendant  Chief Justice Renato Corona proven to be guilty beyond reasonable doubt  as not declaring an enclosure with all his wealth in the Statement of Assets, Liabilites and Net Worth (SALN), betrayal of public trust, and not applying transparency as a public servant.

                In addition, the FCDU Law doesn’t exempt anybody in declaring his/her wealth in a sworn, oath statement as being a public servant. As long as you own something, whether declared in foreign currency or local currency, a public is entrust to declare. If anyone doesn’t want a transparency of all his wealth, then don’t enter the public office.

In my opinion, being a concern mom, I may say that this issue would be a lesson to learn from all of us especially to public servant. Yes, there are more of them(C.J. Corona), much worse than him. Sad to say, his the example given. What the present is doing, has something from the past, and much is involve in the future.

             As a woman and a mom, how would these affects our daily lives in our own little home?

MyLot, a lot.

I signed-up for mylot.com about four months ago yet not working on it. If only I knew how is to be with mylot. 

I could share things I wanted to discuss, upload photos, comments on discussions, play games, doing a research and mostly I liked about it is I get responses from people whom are not really my friends yet very sincere on helping someone resolving an issue. And the bonus? You get paid for everything you do with mylot.

So why not do things on social networking at the same time earn for it? Especially for moms right now whom are very much active on fb yet still not earning. I assure everything in mylot is really fun. I get acquaintances sincere advises from mylotters friends. They've really helped me a lot in mylot. 

So to start on your own, just click here. And enjoy a happy mylotting :)

My Comfort Zone

What was good about blogging and owning a personal blog is that I could write anything here. When there are times that I'm down, I wrote it here, times when I'm happy, I wrote it here and times when I learned, I wrote it here.

Yes, this blog is my comfort zone especially when I feel sad like now. I kept on running here and hide. I used to write on black and white but things get changed but not me.

Moments I got down, moments I got weak. The only reason that I feel sad right now is that today's Mother's Day and none of the expected person's to greet me, never say a word ;(.

But I should go on. As Mavis Nong told me that I should not quit because if I do, then they've succeeded. And that there is only one way I am going to FAIL...that's if I QUIT. So, SUCCESS is my only option for me to keep on succeeding.

Mama, I Love You

I would to dedicate this video to all the moms and woman out there, especially to my Mom who has given me such unconditional love, a dedication without hesitation and a superb sacrifice. 

My mom, Florencia Nioda is a volunteer religion teacher. Although, there are a lot of things we don't agree at times, yet I never think of any mom in the world for her to be like. 

Every mom has its uniqueness in love and sacrifice. I, too, have my own. And when the turn of becoming a mom has placed in me, I, then understood the of what is like to be a mom. It was never easy as I thought. I wasn't even ready for that, but she was there. She had thought me everything I know and was even trained me before and then on how to be a mom. As, I remembered her saying to me always: "Wash the clothes and when time comes you have your own family, you'll know how to handle it." 

My Recent Activity:Forum Posting

Yesterday, I opened my yahoo email account and found out an important message from forum posting which I applied for as a part time job. And luckily I was accepted as one of the volunteers. So I wanted to share and invite anyone to post, promote your blogs, post online jobs you know, learn and find online jobs guaranteed and recommended by Filipinos for Filipinos. Basically, its main goal is to be a one-stop all in one source for online jobs for Filipinos.

I used VAcromainer as my username, feel free to comment from my posts and let's see and learn from each other. So, check this out and start to post and promote yourself. :)

Sweet child of mine....

May 1st is my eldest son's birthday. And I wish him to be a good person, good health and that he may be God-fearing person. 

I remember the tough times we've been through. For nine months, I carried him with me alone. His biological father was not with me along the journey for the reason of miscommunication. It was tough and hard emotionally, physically, socially and financially. But I made it, I went to clinics alone not depending with anyone else. My family suffered too. When I was in pain, I know they were in pain also. But thanks to them, I was definitely strong. They made me stronger when I was weak, made me happier when I was sad, made me feel loved when I didn't found one.

But when the day has come arrive. It was 12:15am, May 1st when I felt something was different with me, I was on my ninth month being pregnant with my first child. But not yet my due. As I went to bed, I pee with pajama which was not normal. Ignoring it, I change my clothes and went to bed again. Minutes later, the peeing happened again with more liquid than earlier. So. I decided to went to my mom's room and told her what happened to me. So, we decided to packed things and preparing to go to the maternity clinic. As my mom says that it was time. At 2:00am, she had convince me to went to sleep again. But I couldn't sleep because the pain was starting to make me uncomfortable. Minutes after minutes, the pain goes deeper and deeper. I didn't know how hours have passed without I even noticed it. 

At 6 in the morning, we decided to go the clinic. So, as the midwife whom to noticed was an American girl with blue eyes, interviewed me. She told me that I should go for a walk so that it would make me easier to give birth. Together with my mom, I went for a short walk which was really tough, hard and painful. So, I asked my mom to go back to the clinic for I cannot take it longer to walk.

We went back to the clinic and placed me to bed. They checked me again and it was 5cm. And the pain goes stronger, I even can't take it longer. They started to prepare everything. Put a plastic cellophane at my back and told me to started pushing. And I started to push without even knowing how to. I pushed a little and then some little until I can't even breath. Miss Jennifer Akins, the midwife whom noticed something is wrong with me, told me to give a major push instead of two little push. So, I pusheddddddd hard. And then pushed hard again. But it still didn't work. They taught me different styles and position. I remember there was I sit. But those position still didn't work, so I went back to the original position laying my back into bed. 

But the pushing still didn't work, and the time passed. The baby inside me is getting into danger. But not until it was when they took a mirror reflecting mine. And I saw the baby's head, I panicked thinking how would my son breath? So maybe with the help of my adrenaline, I pushed the hardest I could ever done. I couldn't even realize how I breath. 

And thank God, the baby's safe and alive. I gave birth at 10:33am May 1st 2005.